Lost in OK

It’s been awhile since I last wrote anything. I guess the best way to put it is that I have been burnt out on just about everything. Work has been hard and draining the last few weeks. I guess its all public news at this point. We had to lay off some very good people in order to get us into better financial shape. However, the necessity of the action doesn’t make it any easier. I know that as long as I stay in a management role, this will not be the last time I will make such decisions, but I sure wish it would. There are many who think that the decision of those to end someone’s employment is an easy one to make by the callous management of a company. However, if my stress and terror are any indication, this is simply not the case.

A friend called this evening complaining about my lack of response to an email of his. However, I couldn’t find it anywhere. After digging around this evening I have discovered the cause and a warning too boot, Outlook Express sucks when used improperly (and maybe even when used properly). I performed a little hack that allowed me to keep my message share in a centralized network location. However, I appears for the last month or so, a copy of Outlook Express has been running on my desktop machine even though the window wasn’t visible. This means that when I checked my email with my laptop, the messages that were received by this invisible process were lost. In other words, I’ve got some of your messages and others I haven’t. So if you sent me a message during the last month or so and I haven’t responded, please don’t take it personally, I just suck at properly screwing around with software.